Cancer sucks

Cancer sucks pure and simple. I'm sure it's no surprise that I'm having a difficult time dealing with the roller coaster ride. My next visit up to the family cottage is tomorrow, and I'm scared because it was hard enough trying to keep the shocked expression off my face when I say my Dad last month, He has a year left at the most, and the way things are now, I think that's optimistic. He has started chemo and it has left him very weak. I'm trying to think of ways to spend time with him, but the present circumstances don't make it easy.